This week was a great week and exciting things are happening! I've been on the mission for 3 months, we have 2 baptismal dates (and I think they really will happen), we have seen miracles, and of course the mission is so hard, but it's so cool. Last Friday was a really really hard day. I don't ever remember why now, but it was hard. Tears, emotional, laughs, hugs, all. We were at the church waiting for a menos activo to come and before we walked out on the temple grounds i was filling up my water bottle. I heard a whisper "Hermana" and I turned around to see a cute lady telling me to wait for a second. She pulled out a container of some rice dish. She gave it to us and pointed to heaven and said something about God and blessings... Long story short, Hermana Weaver and I were hungry and she blessed us with a delicious rice, bean, some kind of meat dinner. Seriously she was an angel sent from heaven.
My brain is rambling because I seriously don't know what to share?? So this will probably be all over, but bear with me.
I don't know if I shared this, but there are 2 elders here Elder Maxfield and Elder Smith and both of their little sisters were my campers at camp last summer! It's been really fun to meet the brothers and share that together! (Also, if anyone at camp now is reading this, please cherish every moment there for me. I miss it!)
Thinking back on my week it was very emotional and hard. I think I've been a little homesick, but I don't like admitting that because I don't think I like the word "homesick". It's crazy because sometimes I feel so alone, and I don't understand why because I literally have a companion by me 24/7 and I know I have my Savior and a Heavenly Father who loves me... Last night I was laying on our balcony, looking at the stars, and praying to Heavenly Father... With tears rolling down my cheeks just asking for comfort, (We also were fasting so I felt super weak anyways....) and trying to wrestle with God because I didn't know what to say, how to express my feelings, or even know what to think. (Refer to Enos picture). I came inside, and we had our companion prayer... Hermana Weaver literally said everything I needed, blessed me to not be homesick, blessed our family, (each of you by name, haha she finally got who is married to who and she's so proud. I love it) and continued with extended family and cousins, grandparents, aunts/uncles and so forth. I'm grateful to have a companion who had no idea what was going on and was lead by the spirit to know what to pray for and how she could help. For any of you who may feel alone, sad, or down, pray to Heavenly Father. Pour your whole heart to him and he will help. Ask for strength and comfort!
The other day we were contacting and I stopped a lady named Mari Carmem. She told us that her mom was a Mormon, (she was Catholic), but she really admired what we do as missionaries. We talked for probably 15 minutes, but towards the end I remember her saying (well I think she said this.. Haha this is what I got from it).. To just cherish every moment, to be calm here, to look around, and love what I'm doing. I love that because it's so true. As a missionary, I feel like we're always running around crazy, we always have somewhere to be or someone to be with, people to call or things to do. But this time here as a missionary is short. Sometimes it doesn't seem like it... But it is! Life is short. So cherish the moments you have!
Sorry my thoughts are scrambled. It's been a long week since last Monday and so much is always going on. The work is great, the weather is hot, and summer is here.
Hope all is well for everyone, wherever you may be in the world!
To whomever is reading this, I just want you to know that you truly do have a Father in Heaven who loves you, knows you and he wants to hear from you. Pray to him and have a relationship with him. He is your father and he LOVES YOU! Read the Book of Mormon, pray daily, serve, smile, and choose the right. Love you all and I'll be back on Monday!
Besitos, Hermana Curtis
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